This blog is....not happening like I planned.
Well I guess I should have expected this. I was never a good journal keeper, except for on my mission. I wrote every day on my mission. But of course I never reread that journal cause wow why would I want to remember that?
There is literally no excuse for why I haven't been writing in this or any other journal. The past month has been FULL of snow days (or cold days) and I have been going crazy with the free time. One day I even started baking. Whoa.
And here we are with another storm outside (ice and sleet) and I'm wasting away another Sunday. I actually sat down to organize my church music, but through a series of random events, found myself on the Star Wars wikipedia page, reading all about what has happened in the EU since I stopped reading the books. OMG SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED. Mara DIED (which I had heard about but I think denied so much that I had blocked it from my memory), Jacen turned to the dark side (and killed Mara and I weep), and Jaina had to kill Jacen, and Jacen had a baby with Tenal Ka (asdfghjkl), and Jaina GOT MARRIED to JAG (honestly did not see that coming). After reading through a lot of the new information, a part of me was like "holy cow i need to start reading these books again" but then another part of me was like "dude, liisa, you've had 10 books sitting on your desk for the past two years that you still haven't picked up and read. there is no way you are getting through one star wars book, not to mention the 20+ ones you haven't read." So yeah, there's that. It made me pretty sad to see yet another part of my life that is over and done with. I mean, Star Wars was a BIG part of my life and I'm sure it always will be, but it, like CONSUMED my life through middle and high school and even into college. It's just really weird how the obsession suddenly just stopped. There were others that came and went, but I think Star Wars was, by far, the longest and most consuming. I remember watching the movies over and over and over and OVER again, I don't know how my parents put up with it. And the fanfiction and earning money to buy all the books (ugh I had so many books, SO MANY) and even trying to do fanart at one time (that was horrifying). Wow.
But of course I still get butterflies in my stomach and slightly lightheaded when I watch the teaser trailer for the new Star Wars movie. So something is still there, apparently :p
But yes, onto real life. Real life is IEPs and progress reports and behavior interventions and reinforcer development and so, so, so much patience that I do not have yet. I lost it the other day with one of my students and when I went into school the next day I apologised to my IAs for how I had acted and both of them were like "We don't think you did anything wrong" but I was still just like "that kid is going to the celestial kingdom and he's going to remember how I shouted at him" ::sigh:: Some days are better than others of course. I need to start keeping a little "good moments" journal to jot down all the successes I have so that I can remember them on the hard days. Cause I do have success, but it's so little and it is often lost in the midst of the battles I don't win.
Real life is also GMU, which is going pretty well. I've got two projects already out of the way and just a few papers of the semester left. It hasn't been too horrible, the dreaded group project is done (we nailed it and got 100%) and while it's hard being in class till 10pm every Tuesday, it makes the rest of the week more bearable when it's over. I'm just about halfway done with school so that's also a plus.
Real life is also DISNEY. TWENTY FIVE DAYS AWAY. AHHHHHH. It cannot come soon enough. As my sister and I were walking in from church this afternoon, she commented how awful it would be if one of us fell (on the ice) and our Disney trip was affected. I panicked and started walking painstakingly slow cause NOTHING is going to ruin this Disney trip. NOTHING.
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