So since my last post was all about not-reality, lets try to switch it up.
I mean, don't think that the crush has passed, cause oh. my. goodness. i have problems.
But yes, the real world.
It is the time of IEPs. IEPs everywhere, all the time. I actually sat down with our SLP and write out an IEP on Monday for a transitioning students and it was kinda of thrilling. I mean, terrifying of course, but thrilling too. I kept saying "Can I do that?' and she was like "You're the teacher, you can do whatever you want!" How scary is that? I have power....PHENOMINAL COSMIC POWER.
Our ABA coach came today and asked about staffing for next year and I was like "OMG PLEASE FIND MY ANNOYING IA A TEACHING JOB SO HE CAN LEAVE." And she was like "No problem." ::angelic choir::
Disney in one week!!!!! I'm afraid I'm just going to be exhausted on the vacation and I'm not sure how to fix that. Just gotta remember to enjoy the moments while I'm in them, no matter how tired I am.
Always in the back of my mind is this uncertainty about the next two years with my parents leaving on their mission and my sister and her family moving and no one (so far) to take care of my little brother except for me...and what am I supposed to do? The other night while I was praying about it, i thought "I could just quit my job for two years and take care of my brother. I could do that. I could finish my Masters, maybe even get a second degree and licence, go back to work when my parents get home in a job that I like even better...." That thought is still kinda bubbling around in my head, but I know my parents would never let me do that. They would feel too guilty. But they shouldn't, cause that scenario has a lot of perks for me as well. But yeah, no, they won't let it happen. But so far it's been my only solution.
Meanwhile, my sister and I are prepping our house to go on the market, counting down to Disney, and trying not to eat everything in sight. So continues my life...
Wednesday, March 18, 2015
Sunday, March 8, 2015
I happen to like nice men.
With so many snow days, it was inevitable that I get myself hooked on a show.
Okay well no that's not fair cause seriously I have not been watching shows recently, like ANY shows. I started Arrow but that was like "meh" and Supernatural and Doctor Who are, like "so last year". IDK who I am anymore.
So no, it was not inevitable. But it happened.
::facepalm::
I finally, finally watched season 3 of Once Upon A Time, and let me just tell you how rediculously I am attracted to Killian Jones.
I mean, this is unhealthy.
My sister and I were watching a different show today and out of nowhere she was like "You haven't seen Hook today, have you?" and I was like "It's better that way" but then she pulls up his IMDB page and flashes it in front of me and....and....
Yeah this needs to stop.
It's like Jonas Armstrong and Jensen Ackles never even happened.
(though my sister did point out that he does sort of look like Jonas)
::cries a little bit::
My only consolation is that work begins again tomorrow and hopefully the snow is gone and my life will get all crazy and stressful and everything will go back to normal where I cry about lots of other things.
Cause, need I remind you, my life is CRAZY. I do not have time for fictional pirates or their guyliner.
Okay well no that's not fair cause seriously I have not been watching shows recently, like ANY shows. I started Arrow but that was like "meh" and Supernatural and Doctor Who are, like "so last year". IDK who I am anymore.
So no, it was not inevitable. But it happened.
::facepalm::
I finally, finally watched season 3 of Once Upon A Time, and let me just tell you how rediculously I am attracted to Killian Jones.
I mean, this is unhealthy.
My sister and I were watching a different show today and out of nowhere she was like "You haven't seen Hook today, have you?" and I was like "It's better that way" but then she pulls up his IMDB page and flashes it in front of me and....and....
Yeah this needs to stop.
It's like Jonas Armstrong and Jensen Ackles never even happened.
(though my sister did point out that he does sort of look like Jonas)
::cries a little bit::
My only consolation is that work begins again tomorrow and hopefully the snow is gone and my life will get all crazy and stressful and everything will go back to normal where I cry about lots of other things.
Cause, need I remind you, my life is CRAZY. I do not have time for fictional pirates or their guyliner.
Sunday, March 1, 2015
I don't know what all this trouble is about, but I'm sure it must be your fault.
This blog is....not happening like I planned.
Well I guess I should have expected this. I was never a good journal keeper, except for on my mission. I wrote every day on my mission. But of course I never reread that journal cause wow why would I want to remember that?
There is literally no excuse for why I haven't been writing in this or any other journal. The past month has been FULL of snow days (or cold days) and I have been going crazy with the free time. One day I even started baking. Whoa.
And here we are with another storm outside (ice and sleet) and I'm wasting away another Sunday. I actually sat down to organize my church music, but through a series of random events, found myself on the Star Wars wikipedia page, reading all about what has happened in the EU since I stopped reading the books. OMG SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED. Mara DIED (which I had heard about but I think denied so much that I had blocked it from my memory), Jacen turned to the dark side (and killed Mara and I weep), and Jaina had to kill Jacen, and Jacen had a baby with Tenal Ka (asdfghjkl), and Jaina GOT MARRIED to JAG (honestly did not see that coming). After reading through a lot of the new information, a part of me was like "holy cow i need to start reading these books again" but then another part of me was like "dude, liisa, you've had 10 books sitting on your desk for the past two years that you still haven't picked up and read. there is no way you are getting through one star wars book, not to mention the 20+ ones you haven't read." So yeah, there's that. It made me pretty sad to see yet another part of my life that is over and done with. I mean, Star Wars was a BIG part of my life and I'm sure it always will be, but it, like CONSUMED my life through middle and high school and even into college. It's just really weird how the obsession suddenly just stopped. There were others that came and went, but I think Star Wars was, by far, the longest and most consuming. I remember watching the movies over and over and over and OVER again, I don't know how my parents put up with it. And the fanfiction and earning money to buy all the books (ugh I had so many books, SO MANY) and even trying to do fanart at one time (that was horrifying). Wow.
But of course I still get butterflies in my stomach and slightly lightheaded when I watch the teaser trailer for the new Star Wars movie. So something is still there, apparently :p
But yes, onto real life. Real life is IEPs and progress reports and behavior interventions and reinforcer development and so, so, so much patience that I do not have yet. I lost it the other day with one of my students and when I went into school the next day I apologised to my IAs for how I had acted and both of them were like "We don't think you did anything wrong" but I was still just like "that kid is going to the celestial kingdom and he's going to remember how I shouted at him" ::sigh:: Some days are better than others of course. I need to start keeping a little "good moments" journal to jot down all the successes I have so that I can remember them on the hard days. Cause I do have success, but it's so little and it is often lost in the midst of the battles I don't win.
Real life is also GMU, which is going pretty well. I've got two projects already out of the way and just a few papers of the semester left. It hasn't been too horrible, the dreaded group project is done (we nailed it and got 100%) and while it's hard being in class till 10pm every Tuesday, it makes the rest of the week more bearable when it's over. I'm just about halfway done with school so that's also a plus.
Real life is also DISNEY. TWENTY FIVE DAYS AWAY. AHHHHHH. It cannot come soon enough. As my sister and I were walking in from church this afternoon, she commented how awful it would be if one of us fell (on the ice) and our Disney trip was affected. I panicked and started walking painstakingly slow cause NOTHING is going to ruin this Disney trip. NOTHING.
Well I guess I should have expected this. I was never a good journal keeper, except for on my mission. I wrote every day on my mission. But of course I never reread that journal cause wow why would I want to remember that?
There is literally no excuse for why I haven't been writing in this or any other journal. The past month has been FULL of snow days (or cold days) and I have been going crazy with the free time. One day I even started baking. Whoa.
And here we are with another storm outside (ice and sleet) and I'm wasting away another Sunday. I actually sat down to organize my church music, but through a series of random events, found myself on the Star Wars wikipedia page, reading all about what has happened in the EU since I stopped reading the books. OMG SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED. Mara DIED (which I had heard about but I think denied so much that I had blocked it from my memory), Jacen turned to the dark side (and killed Mara and I weep), and Jaina had to kill Jacen, and Jacen had a baby with Tenal Ka (asdfghjkl), and Jaina GOT MARRIED to JAG (honestly did not see that coming). After reading through a lot of the new information, a part of me was like "holy cow i need to start reading these books again" but then another part of me was like "dude, liisa, you've had 10 books sitting on your desk for the past two years that you still haven't picked up and read. there is no way you are getting through one star wars book, not to mention the 20+ ones you haven't read." So yeah, there's that. It made me pretty sad to see yet another part of my life that is over and done with. I mean, Star Wars was a BIG part of my life and I'm sure it always will be, but it, like CONSUMED my life through middle and high school and even into college. It's just really weird how the obsession suddenly just stopped. There were others that came and went, but I think Star Wars was, by far, the longest and most consuming. I remember watching the movies over and over and over and OVER again, I don't know how my parents put up with it. And the fanfiction and earning money to buy all the books (ugh I had so many books, SO MANY) and even trying to do fanart at one time (that was horrifying). Wow.
But of course I still get butterflies in my stomach and slightly lightheaded when I watch the teaser trailer for the new Star Wars movie. So something is still there, apparently :p
But yes, onto real life. Real life is IEPs and progress reports and behavior interventions and reinforcer development and so, so, so much patience that I do not have yet. I lost it the other day with one of my students and when I went into school the next day I apologised to my IAs for how I had acted and both of them were like "We don't think you did anything wrong" but I was still just like "that kid is going to the celestial kingdom and he's going to remember how I shouted at him" ::sigh:: Some days are better than others of course. I need to start keeping a little "good moments" journal to jot down all the successes I have so that I can remember them on the hard days. Cause I do have success, but it's so little and it is often lost in the midst of the battles I don't win.
Real life is also GMU, which is going pretty well. I've got two projects already out of the way and just a few papers of the semester left. It hasn't been too horrible, the dreaded group project is done (we nailed it and got 100%) and while it's hard being in class till 10pm every Tuesday, it makes the rest of the week more bearable when it's over. I'm just about halfway done with school so that's also a plus.
Real life is also DISNEY. TWENTY FIVE DAYS AWAY. AHHHHHH. It cannot come soon enough. As my sister and I were walking in from church this afternoon, she commented how awful it would be if one of us fell (on the ice) and our Disney trip was affected. I panicked and started walking painstakingly slow cause NOTHING is going to ruin this Disney trip. NOTHING.
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